Love at first sight.

All I thought before was that I would not experience having a girlfriend not by curiosity but by love. I had many crushes when I was still in my high-school years. But, I didn’t dare to court even one since I dreamt of becoming a priest. I knew that what I felt was just infatuation or attraction. It was not really a love.

Just then after I graduated high school, I pursued my dream to become a priest. I entered the seminary of the Order of the Augustinian Recollect. Along with this entry to the seminary, I said that I will never court a girl. In addition, I said that I will set my focus to God and only Him.

However, God’s will is undetectable. It’s unknowable. I had been in my fifth year inside the seminary. Next to that year would be my taking of vows. I thought that I was a hundred percent sure I would never detract myself from the path of priesthood. But, no. The twist of my life story came.

I met a girl during my exposure in Palawan, and the words that I mouthed out were, “I see the girl I want to marry.” Since then I couldn’t stop my mind from thinking about her. Was my experience a love at first sight?

At first, I didn’t court her ‘cause I knew it’s not allowed. However, even how hard my mind insisted to not entertain what I felt to her, it’s still that weak and helpless to surpass the beat of love.

I baffled so much in my decision making. I prayed for enlightenment. I asked the Lord why He let me meet her. Why in a crazy moment where I was in the middle of my formation, He allowed me to experience love to a girl. God is so playful in His will.

I couldn’t concentrate anymore on my prayer life since she was the only one I was thinking of. So I asked for rest.

Now, I have no regret that I chose the girl I once said I want to marry. I said to God if my decision to take a rest was a mistake, it was the mistake I love to embrace.

Please leave a comment if what I experience was love at first sight.